Once Again.

we can't turn back time, even if we can i'd still prefer it to be this way. i caught valuable experiences and learnt lessons not everyone is given a chance to have. i guess i am different, i guess there's just something different in my life, i guess i will do it. i will face my destiny, like how i spoke that night, like how i did before, it sinks into hearts, it wakes the sleep, it raises the dead. how can i forsake such a gift? thank You for making me like that, yes i think so differently, but if i don't do so, i'm not shaun lee. You make me feel so important, with so much bad stuff, comes the good lessons and the unique experiences, the unique point of views, the complicated mind. You moved me yet again, You won me over again, i concede.

i just want to see how You will see

i just want to know how You think

i just want to love how You love

i just want to lead how You lead

i just want to do what You do

i just want You.

p.s i'm gonna get inked!! yay ;D

Problems & Solutions.

zoom zoom zoom. next thing i know, i feel i'm in the deepest of shit. but then again, from another perspective, i'm not. despite all these shitty stuff, thoughts spun through my mind like a tornado.

its just a point of time in life that i know its time to maybe make a change. sometimes you just need to take time to do it, but you expect quick results because the people around you thinks its easy and expects you to change in the fastest possible time. sorry, i was never near perfection and i never will be. i too want to change, but when you're going through it, its tough as hell, you shiver, you shake, you get cranky all the time, you don't think positive. all i'm asking is, think maybe how hard is it before making any comment at all. what i really need, is encouragement and motivation, not condemnation. i just need God, nothing else.

help me,

take me out of here.

Updates.

where is shaun lee?

this hopefully, is one of the many questions asked during svc, leader's meeting and bs. haha i've been doing things i thought i never will do. i was working as this balloon inflater, hoister, cleaner and trigger-er. bao ga liao liao kinda job with edo intro-ed by deborah chan, yes the beauty queen. got to know good people, bad people and saw a glimpse of the real cruel world. anyway... to me, surviving throughout the whole job thing, is a breakthrough already, i have never start and finished something before, especially a job. i learnt a lot through this, thank you Lord!

btw, i went for my NS medical check-up, temporary PES D. PTL!!!

ps i need favor!!

i love you.

the helpless gardener.

no matter how much effort the gardener put in growing the plant,

it seemed as if it is always withering,

the gardener felt helpless cos all the other 100 plants were the same,

he just hoped the 101th plant would be different,

so he was persistent about it and never gave up.

p.s i love you.

the Good Fight.

the battle of the mind

the battle of the flesh

the doubts that sparked

the assumptions to be erupted

the right is the wrong

the wrong is the right

a curse i am carrying

a curse i want to lift

i never felt like this

i never knew love

i hate this part

i hate myself.

Like father, like son.

i pray i wont be like my dad,

i pray ppl will never be like me.

in the end, our example are examples 

you should never follow.

i am such a puzzle.

Me.

  green among the red,

all are sweet but i am sour,

same heart but of different taste,

because of me hearts are lifted,

because of me hearts are sunken,

i ask,

who am i?

and

why am i me??

am i still the apple of your eye?

how much more can i?