HOLIDAYS!!

  yay! its almost holidays now, two straight weeks of break, 3 - 4 classes somewhere somedays but its sufficient. finding time to just lie down and watch the clouds go by is super hard. wednesday was my last deadline for major works this term. it was a work that was supposed to be done over a period of 7 weeks. knowing me, i have to wait till the last min, like wednesday = deadline, tuesday = work. fortunately, incredibly, miraculously, supernaturally, i made it, not alone but with two wacky guys whom i address them one as a nerd and the other as an idiot, YES its hikaru and edo! 

  a super huge kudos to them for spending their time with me at potong pasir mac and coffeeshop, without them i'll not be able to make it happen. i was counting down the hours to deadline, it was horrid. i hated the feeling but am enjoying right now. do well or not well, i dun really care. i did my best in that night. i went to school handed it in, lunched, cabbed home and slept at 4pm, woke up at 8am. a flat 16 hours sleep. i was counting, around 1.5 litre red bull consumed that day, maybe a ton of caffine. i made it, or WE made it. thanks guys, its you guys that make the impossible seem so easy with me, not forgetting YOU. thanks Lord, for strength and everything that happened so far.

P.S sorry lionel, i din put your name down, cos you just sticked around for awhile and confused me with your introduction. i suddenly hate japs. ;p

SHAUN LEE.

(dun be disgusted by me)

  hi, this is self-introductory. I'm going to be 19 this 11th DEC. I'm in NAFA year 1 now. I'm a Narcissist for sure. some say its psychological disorder but who cares, i praise myself without me knowing sometimes, it seems so natural (no kidding). i like burberry cos i dunno why, maybe i like checks. I'm a badass with good intentions. i dunno how to change this part, but like what my closest friends say, it's me. so i guess it cannot be changed, sorta trademark. I'm straightforward, i use harsh words and am hypercritical.

 i observe how ppl observe others observe. so I'm hard to be lied to, i can be over-sensitive sometimes. I'm very manipulative, i can get anything i want through manipulation, disgusting but true. i'm a drop dead lazy person, every girl I'm interested in, i will compare her not with the hottest chick i know but with myself. weird and high expectations i have but it keeps me from being attached. my mum is my mother and best friend, she's the funkiest mum ever. I'm the funkiest son ever. 

  sometimes its always bout me, myself and I that i forget the people around me. my friends understand me the best, if you hear the good intentions through the harsh words, congrats, you do know me well. I'm never a cheesy and gentle person, its just not me. to be honest, things that really motivate me in life is, image, fame, recognition , mother and adrenaline rush. lol bye.

P.S OH, OH , I FORGOT!! I'M STILL FREE THIS VDAY. ;d

BURBERRY!

  i got a Burberry polo tee from my classmate for belated xmas, birthday and advanced Vday!

 

  i feel gooooood. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

  :D:D:D:D:D!!!11!!111111!!!!1

  thanks ws! rock on =p

WALKING THE TALK.

"i will never backslide" , " i will never give up", " no matter what, i'll stay".

  simple sentences i said, yet so difficult to do.

  i wanted time on my own.

  i wanted to buck up.

  i wanted to score As.

  i wanted to make my mum happy.

  i wanted to do whatever i like.

  i wanted to get higher than 0.55 GPA. 

  i wanted no responsibilities.

  i wanted to leave.

  then again,

  i wanted friends.

  i wanted family.

  i wanted them.

  i wanted love.

  i wanted W212.

  i wanted Him.

  

  so,

  i'm coming back.

  i'm starting all over.

  i'm gonna change.

  i'm gonna persevere.

  i'm sorry.

  i'm happy.

  i'm thankful.

  thank you for standing beside me during this time.

  just when i thought no one cared, you guys proved me wrong.

  thank you for your tears. love and care.

  lets go new W212~!

p.s you have to have a near death experience to know how to cherish the life you once had.

VALENTINE!

  yep, its the next big thing.

p.s i'm free!

REUNION.

  how was reunion? one of the most frequent questions you've heard.

  if it went well for u, praise God!

  if it went bad for you like mine, praise God too!

  why was it bad?

  my divorced parents went for reunion too!

  my dad din breathe a word, everyone was feeling weird.

  he left the table to watch tv halfway, said he was full.

  sorta slept on the couch while watching tv.

  i finished my portion and wanted to hang around with my cousins.

  mum came in and eh he wants to go already cos of headache or stomachache.

  i went, why not u and him go first? so early only. it was 9 then.

  mum went, dun want la.

  pissed, walked out and left the house.

  boo, this is the reunion part.

 things that made it worse,

 my mum claimed that she din wanna have anything to do with him anymore.

 females are ALWAYS soft hearted.

 she paid his traffic fines today, 89 bucks. 

 i din feel very good about it.

 he probably feigned the headache and stomachache which i felt he did.

 i have to do visitations MYSELF this year. how cool is that huh?

 if it wasnt because of his selfish act.

 sometimes, just sometimes i will feel, why? just why is my dad like that.

 God... help me to forgive!

 my dad is still my dad.

 

p.s i hate cny!

NAFA 2nd SEMESTER!!

  this is the second week of school already. i still rmb the time i blogged bout the first day of sch.

this sem kinda different, maybe cause i really put in effort to write my new year resolutions. for example, not being late for school, waking up on time, not missing school, do every work on time, spend more time with my classmates and schoolmates. so far so good i can say. i haven't been late for school yet, i haven't wake up late yet, i din miss a day of school yet, i din miss a deadline, i spent lots of time with my classmates and schoolmates! good work shaun, 100%! 

  i seem to look forward to school everyday, haha i feel its a good thing la. btw i havent GAMED YET! i'm proud of myself actually. i'm determined to study hard and shine! come what may NAFA!! i'll take u on head on! here i come As!!

p.s ASHLEE, this is not philosophy and theory anymore. =p

DECISIONS.

  i guess i did messed up.

  i guess i did falter.

  i guess i got distracted.

  i guess i ppl make mistakes.

  i guess nobody is perfect.

  i guess i chose You.

  i guess i'm setting everything else aside.

  i guess i do love You more than any other thing.

  i guess i really do wanna do more.

  i guess i made up my mind.

  i guess its You i want.

  i love you, Lord.

Priority.

  the reason i can overlook, oversee and overcome is because i have my priorities right.

  

BUSY

 its really busy now in sch, 2nd sem is really tons of work. like i said, i kicked gaming, this has GOT to work out. i'm so gonna be the head and not the tail. i'll EMERGE ABOVE!!

Wrong thats right.

  We, can never have the best of both worlds. i chose "by right".

  As long as the narcissistic nature take over, it'll be alright. 

DENIM.

  Denims are nice. especially on girls.

Balance.

  I'm happy in church.

  I'm happy at home.

  I'm happy with my friends.

  I'm happy in W212.

 

But, i dun wanna mess all that up because of school work. i kicked gaming, i guess it'll work out.

 

 Gambatte shaun lee! nothing you cant conquer.

Narcissist.

 after an earthquake, the first thing i'll do is to see if my clothes and hair is in place.

                                                                                                                                           cheers!

Humans.

(yes this is random)

 Humans are never satisfied, unhappy with the happy, unhappier with the happier, seeking for thrills when its bored, seeking boredom when its too thrilling, seeking responsibility when they have none, shirking them when they have too much, getting married when they are single, getting divorced when they are married, yearns to grow up when they are young, yearns to stay young when they are grown up, slimming down when they are plump, slimming down further when they are skinny. 

                                                                                                                                                                                              

                                                                                                                                               A human's life.

PURPOSE.

 The year is ending in 4 days. we will proceed to a whole new start, how exciting. the new challenges we will face, the new people that we'll meet, the new experiences we will have. exciting isn't it?

 i'm thinking alot this days, the past 361 days. what i've done, who i've influenced, who i've helped, how an angel i've been or how a jerk i've been. indeed this year has been a roller-coaster ride for me, seeing my parents' relationship got from bad to worse and from worse to worst, getting out from my lowest point, trying my best to fight the temptations to use ways as short cuts to numb the pain in my heart. i also remembered the time i became a connect group leader, the time when jared told me and darwin to start doing more, the new friendships i made, the time i found out i was good at sewing(lol), there were good times and bad times but ultimately i came out of it stronger, better.

 Definitely, i don't wanna stop here just yet. i know there's still more in store, i know there's lots of room for improvement. God oh God, i pray you never stop moulding me, i pray you never stop using me, for the little things and for the big things, i know there are times where i'm slack and lazy but its high time to change.

 2009, the best year yet!

SCARED!!!!

After reading D's blog, i think i wouldn't dare to mention the phrase smashing of cakes in front of her again. 

P.S hey D, i was just kidding. you sounded SCARY. LOL

*Smexy Me.

  Pasta de Waraku, good FOOD! haha was out with D, darwin, edo, hikaru, han yong, fiona and the supposedly going GWEN(but was busy). we started off with dinner, ate ate ate ALOT. i was always asking them what were they gonna surprise me with. i was always trying to figure out their next move, it was funny really. then hikaru went to the toilet, i followed. when i was done, he was already gone, i went back to the seat and sat down, thats when they got me.

  The waiter brought the cake in front of me and they celebrated my bday. it was a surprise, surprisingly, they gave me a bottle of corona extra. i was like wow, what a gift. then after they gave me a belt from messy with a japanese buckle. then i found out they still have gifts, so when we billed and left the place, edo passed me a bag and inside was a T shirt from Queen's couture! thanks DEB! when i tot it was all over, hikaru came and pass me a fossil watch with metallic strap!! even cooler la. i was indeed surprised but the presents, i was really very happy that they really took the effort to plan this whole thing out for me.

  i was also really encouraged by the messages that were sent to me, they really told me how impt i was and how i influenced ppl. thanks again guys, i also wanna thank God! without him is without this family, without him is without this wonderful group of friends! 

  this year, i wish to be more disciplined, to be more focused, to be more responsible, to be more mature in my thinking, to love God more, to love people more and to grow TALLER. its been wonderful to see myself changing so much in this past 3 years in church and definitely, its the love of God and people that changed me!

 

 thanks hikaru, edo , darwin and FREDDY. life will never be quiet with you. thanks gwen, fiona and D! life is never interesting without u girls. u are definitely my best SISTERS! not forgetting Jared, who always never fails to be there for me through thick or thin, thank you.

P.S i'm really ok with belated gifts, once again, i dun mind branded still. LOL :D

*smexy = sexy

Wishlist.

i love Surprises, so..

top - S

waist 28-30

feet - 8

colours - red, black & white

i dun wear necklaces. THANKS. :D

P.S i dun mind branded. LOL

IT IS NEAR.

 i'm excited that it is near, im happy that it is near. callsmstagmsnfloodblesslove me on that day.

what it is? 

read somewhere in the About Me section

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