zooooom and its been a month ever since i been into army, have i changed some may ask. i did, indeed i did. physically and mentally of cos, 5 days, 3 physical training(PT) lessons per day. of cos i've become bigger? this is my third bookout, its been better than the last two i guess. but things aren't really the same anymore, i don't know how to explain. feels like i've disconnected from everyone, living my own world with my bunk mates. whats with this transition, am i going to hang out with my bunkmates more? am i gonna slowly drift from my ever strong SA clique? the topics become lesser, the actions become displeasing. this is weird. why do i think i feel more comfortable with my bunkmates sometimes.
a test of friendship? i did try to meet them and talk to them. din really seem to work. its the same, if i don't ask, nobody would. issit true that friends come, friends go? i'm starting to feel they are going under the category "church friends" than the brothers that we used to be. stuff i say now fall to the ground. feathers that follow where the wind blows. where do i go, who do i turn to? there are definitely two sides to this story. this is just my part of it.
P.S i found some colors in my little black & white world.
